THE UNTRUTH OR THE LIE

I just decided to leave certain details
Your demeanor showed you could not handle it all
Was it my fault??

I just decided to feed it to you in bits
You seemed to welcome that
Was it my fault??

I just decided to ease the pain
Your heart swelled at the information
Was it my fault??

Untrue or a lie
It was ok at that moment
Right??
So what's your beef??

My! How easily they forget
How soon they point fingers
How soon they decide and analyse

Was it my fault??
Well my bad! You liked it
That little bits of it
Those little twists I gave
Those teeny-weeny bits I left out

Your contentment, your smile
Immeasurable, exhilarating
Shaking my head!

Now the nerves quake
You now decide you'd have wanted it all
All at once

Untrue or a lie
It was ok for that moment

Wipe off that tear
Clean off that train of mucus
Shut off that hoarse crack

Untrue or a lie
Reasons made it so

Untrue or a lie
Not the best decision

Untrue or a lie
Wish I could spill it all

Untrue or a lie
It was the best I could offer

Untrue or a lie
Judge it not

Untrue!
Well I had to leave it out

Lies!
Well I just had to feed it to you

No justifications just yet
But realizations

Untrue or a lie
I just wanted what was best

Well that being relative
Untrue or a lie
I just loved it so
To divulge all that was true

#boatenmaa

My Ride

Whatever can I say

What do I really mean

Being a while no doubt

My finger quake like the engines

Ready to burst yet steady enough

Enough to show its sleek ratio

My ride

My tires

My speed

Not so easy

Yet hey! 

Still the race spurs

The laws gush out

My marrows developing

What is the rush? 

True, but the answer yet to show

My dawns flush off

The glare of the sun in my face

My ride

Vanishing off

Off the terrain

The terrain of my hope

My ride 

If only I could tame your exuberance

But uncertain about the effectual 

relativity

It all started when I thought of how relative everything I felt, knew, learnt, or ever came across was of a relative nature. The relativity almost choked me yet beckoned to me to just embrace it; it was not as though I could even run from it if I could.

My education on how basically was depended on where I was, what I had been exposed to, the formal education I had gone through and my experiences in my environment. Wishfully I thought this small space of mine was all I would face, love and die in. the harsh reality set in when I just had to escape the very thing I knew.

Thus relativity came into play. Like a wizard chess game, my heart pounded when each move came with fatality; my life or my opponent’s. Trust was an easy choice yet relative to mine, I was willing to sacrifice the other.

Gazing now as to how probably stupid I was, I realize how everything would have turned out if only, if only, if I only did one thing instead of the other or probably punched different keys then everything would have been better.

I think each person might have had this thought once or twice. Well it is all in that law of relativity; lurking in the shadows yet all the same, twisting us in the spine by words of regret, had-I knowns, among others.

The slow poison, drunk each day yet we dare not avoid for decisions ought to be made. Choking the life out of us, yet as always it is inevitable.

But must I remind you this is all relative.

The sum of life

The gain of it all

Drawn to its clutches

My world to a standstill

Wherefore shall I draw that is mine??

If not from what I know

Yet my experiences fail

As relativity lurks

My heart thumps 

For it has yet to learn

The main gears of life

To be continued

#boatenmaa#

the linger

my heart trusts you to remain
my soul bound to you
my deepest regret so entangled
by the loss you sought
that loss you never let me in
in to that hollow space
where we could be joined yet again

my bones infused with blood
i dare look at its flow
my heart aches
as it richly flows
flows of your linger

the dare game is long overdue
i cant stand it anymore
your linger hurts much more
i think i would be able to bear it
indeed, but afar of

most decisions do hurt
but it does make me stronger

my heart trusts you to remain
yet it pleads for you to let go
my deepest regrets so entangled
yet it pleads for you to allow peace seep in
that loss we both felt
yet you never let me in

i do not know which is worse
you lingering or you leaving???

please allow me that space
to be me just not you in me
as you linger.




                                                                                         #inspiredbyabook#

my life

crazy as it may sound, my desires get the best of me and then they punish me because i had pushed myself too far. well thats if there is anything of that sort. I once asked myself if desire was enough to override my love, my life. i could not answer at that point in time though .

whew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  it has always being the pounding of my heart that tell me, "why you going too fast, you better slow down" 

so much in a hurry to jump out onto the next adventure, my chest expands and tries to give me a head-start where my heart is concerned. hectic but there is no one to complain to.

my desire engulfs me once again. i fail to see my love, my life. several moments pass me by, the clock ticks, my palpitating heart almost bursts out.

my life laid forth

my desires all a myth

a myth because it seemed all non-existent

my treasure

always guided my my twisted desire

my work

always motivated by my desire

my enthusiasm

always sparked by my desire

perhaps its time i sought 

sought for something much more

than my desire

probably love

that will encompass me

fill my gaping hole

fish me out of the storms

perhaps it would bed me

full of cushion

massage my aches

its all for a moment???

perhaps not

for it lasts

as it is genuine

pricks are bound to come

yea! but what is without it

hurts and wounds

but the licking process is not over

the time is come for my desires to flourish perhaps into love and make my love be my life. to be filled with the treasures of it all and lie in its pricks and comfort.

#boatenmaa#

The crack

the crack of it all 

my oh my

the emerging beak

eyes blinded

yet a sure, shaky beginning

the end yet to unfold

scalded, singed, killed

it all starts with a step

stepping out of the crack

It all begun when the egg cracked. Out of the changes in the atmosphere or perhaps the situation;it evolved.

 From its mum's comfort, it stays forgetting a time may come when it all depends on it.

                                        

a whole new world beckons

the path deary and uncomfortable

crazy ideas to form up

desires to keep in check

as passions flood 

 Mind you it might be a tough welcome or a smooth one. 

I must say, seeing a a problem as a shell that has to be cracked; as transformations take place could bring a whole new twist to how you see things.

 hurts creases my brow
faces made at me
tears roll down

comfort unfounded
graces unmet
dreams cursed

It might hit you so bad ;but as the egg goes through it all, you could see it for it as the chick comes out. All ready;prepped up to face it-the crazy world.

Funny enough we just looked as the chicks followed the mother hen; a few weeks later the chicks are left to fend for themselves.

Perhaps it is time you stopped thinking about the grilled chicken, the chicken salads, the chicken nuggets,and the others and thought about how it all came to be.

#boatenmaa#