Thoughts

I wished it was all untrue
The days passed swiftly
Images run swiftly like a video

My seconds no more
The plague sets in
The cloud of my moments
The winds of my memories
The shine of my achievements

In the smoke of life
Evaporating before my eyes
Vanishing into a thin wisp

How then do I cry out?
My energy sapped out
How then do I move?
My boneless self marches on

Whew!!
When else?
Then I turn in my bed
Then I realise
I still have my seconds
A rush of new beginning

The time, I still have
The time - I have to be that person

Save me! The last words on my lips
Yet now
More do I have to make amends

Flaws

Life- my greatest discipline
My disclosure to it all
I feared I had not yet seen a pin-head of what it had to offer

Life- my frenemy
The awesome, miserable me
Cheers and ridicules he served me

Life- the beats he sounded so often
I already forgot how I squeaked in delight
How I danced to his rhythm
How I so often replaced the frayed wires

Life- the crazy tune
I wish I had not met
Yet in the sway of the branches
In the caresses of the wind
In the scorch of the sun
I'm yet reminded that I have nothing else
In him, do I remain hopeful

The steps

I wonder if the nerves down to my toes are working
I wonder if the bones are just fixed
If they listen to my cries

Perhaps I need to update my software
Yes that which engages my brain
That which causes the hormones to activate
That which causes that relaxation and contraction
To engage that step.

My end is near
The cliff beckons
The step backwards or forwards
Hollering I seek my dream

Focus yet to be mine
Do I clear the cobwebs or invite more of them
At least I do know how much they can clog
Clog my vision, my intuition.

Well the choice in my steps are yet to be known.
I even do not know just yet
No more questions I pray.